Kuba Has Died and I am Sad Today.﻿

Kuba Has Died and I am Sad Today.

7/7/2016

The roller coaster ride of emotions is over…yeah right…wouldn’t that be nice.

Yesterday was the day we loved Kuba until his very last breath.
We held him, cried, snuggled, he ate so many treats…and we said goodbye.
As I write these words the tears are streaming down my face.
And that’s OK. I’m really sad.

I’m taking this day slowly, one hour at a time, doing what I need to do and figuring that out as I go along.
I don’t really want to talk much. I just want to be OK with how I feel.
I’m happy he is not suffering anymore, then feel guilty for the things I wish I did differently,
then I forgive myself. I can’t believe our dog is gone.

I’m all over the place. And that’s OK, because then I remind myself that Kuba lives in our hearts forever.
And that his spirit is free.

Jadyn and Tanner knew this day was coming, they said their goodbyes to Kuba,
and went on holidays with family. It’s going to be hard to see their faces tomorrow
and hold their broken hearts. But I know deep down, our hearts will heal.

But right now, I’m just sad.

We held him and loved Kuba till the very end.
We created a scared pet space, where we can sit and talk to him.

He was a really good dog.

“Thank you, Kuba."

16 Comments

bonnoe

7/7/2016 08:39:00 pm

This is just as hard as loosing a loved one that is human. But most of society doesnt recognize it. Its a painful journey. I feel your pain. I've have done this many times. It's hard, just like lossing one of your children. Life sucks. But I know exactly what you are feeling. Xo and Deppest sympathy. Bonnie

Yvonne Heath

7/8/2016 05:38:01 am

It is a big loss with big grief. I will feel sad for...well for however long I do. I'm sorry to hear that you have been through it many times. Grief is hard, but worth all the love that we were given. Sending a hug from me to you. xo

Megan

7/7/2016 08:48:56 pm

I lost my Sadie this week and I am sad too. 13 years. I feel her still in the house. Hear her old grunts and feel her hugs wrapped around my ankle. I will miss her like crazy but am happy she is released from her pain.
My son is 10 years old and has now had his first experience of loss. It's hard to see his heart hurting but he has learned a thing or two about life. I am so proud of him.
Sending healing thoughts to you and your family. Thank you for sharing.

7/8/2016 05:42:53 am

I'm so sorry to hear about Sadie, but happy that you still feel her presence, and had her love for 13 years. You son has not known life with her, so that is a big loss. When our pug Frankie died, our twins were 9 and their hearts were broken. We grieved hard and our hearts slowly healed. Children learning that "grief is sometimes the price of loving, but it's worth it, and our hearts do heal" is so important. I am grateful to our dogs for teaching them that lesson. Sending love and healing right back to you and your family. xo

Kim Rose

7/8/2016 06:25:50 am

Such a heartbreaking time to go through. Hugs.

7/8/2016 07:01:55 am

Yes it is. Hugs help. Thank you. xo

janice mackay

7/8/2016 08:26:46 am

I am so sorry to hear of your dear Kuba dying. I guess it really does help me when we had to put our cat Rascal down that she is no longer suffering! I hope in time your pain will lessen and the memories of her can be cherished for ever! Take care!Love Janice Mackay

7/8/2016 09:03:19 am

Thank you so much Janice. You Mackay women have the best hearts!! xo

Christine

7/8/2016 09:01:42 am

Someone sent this to me when our two cats aged 20 and 21 named Cassie and Ginger, died ... it helped. Thinking of you and the family. Christine

The Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigour; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; his eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together...... Anonymous

7/8/2016 09:04:48 am

I love love love this. Hard to read through the tears but it is reaching my heart. Thank you for taking the time to share! xo

Denise l

7/8/2016 09:51:34 am

My Condolences. I'm so sorry to hear that he has left this earth. He suffers no more. It's painful I know. We lost our cat two years ago. It was difficult to get through. Animals feel us more than we know and give us so much love. Big Hugs & Kisses.

7/11/2016 07:04:16 am

Thank you, Denise. I'm a cat lover too. Had to explain to our cat Smokie that she wouldn't be able to boss Kuba around anymore. She sat by him for a while before he left. xo

Joyce

7/8/2016 08:16:57 pm

Sending you warm hugs Yvonne. They always make me feel better when I'm sad.

7/11/2016 07:05:40 am

Hugs really are the best when you're happy, when you're sad; really good anytime. Thank you. xo

Corinne

7/11/2016 12:40:12 pm

Yvonne,
Sorry to hear about Kuba. We had to euthanize our cat of 17 years a few weeks ago, it's hard. Thinking about you all and sending hugs.
Corinne

7/11/2016 12:43:42 pm

Thank you so much. And I'm so sorry about your cat. 17 years...Wow! That is a lot of love, and big grief!! Sending love and hugs right back!! xo

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